It rained all night, loud plopping drops, cascading off the roof of my house, down the gutters, into the streets. I knew that my spot would be flooded again, like it was during my last visit.
So now I squat on one of the cement steps, avoiding the soggy grass, which when dry I usually enjoy. Today the sun is so bright. I can hardly look at my notebook, the glare so strong. My eyes hurt, but maybe that’s because of more than just the light. And to top it all off, violent winds are blowing the empty branches like I’ve never seen. Sticks are flying through the air. Leaves are stirring from their fallen slumber in the ground. My notebook pages protest against my writing, flaying and billowing out. For the first time in a while, I am focused on the act of writing out in nature, as opposed to the content of my surroundings.
And I guess that’s appropriate, for this is my last official entry, and I’ve come full circle. As I sit here, trying to note the way the breeze blows so fiercely it’s as if it’s attempting to the air of whatever has recently come to pass, I’m instead physically battling that breeze, fighting – writer against nature. I’ll get these words out.
The wind is warm, unnaturally so for December, but I close my eyes and tilt my head toward the sun, letting the air sweep my hair out of my face. Distant chimes on porches chime, and I’m amazed that I can hear them from here.
The trees forfeit their last leaves to the gusts, and tiny shriveled leaves disappear into the sky, never to reunite with their branches again. That’s what autumn windstorms are for, I think, to rid the trees of their leaves. This one, so late in the season, seems like a final sweep, a last check before winter. What are we leaving behind?
Our first semester is over, and today it truly seems so. I think back to this spot when I first arrived: the bees that hovered over the grass, the tall flowers in the garden, the vines and leaves nestled up against the trees in the woods. I wonder what I would write about that season now, after all I’ve learned, if I to visit it as it was then.
Maybe I’ll come back to the spot again throughout the year. But this moment feels like an ending. The wind tells me so.
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
Response 11: Nature and Environmental Writing, To Continue
“Nature and Environmental Writing.” I heard the name of the course and knew that’s what I wanted to do. I’m here to write. I’m passionate about the environment. This, I realized, is going to be my channel.
This course was a wonderful introduction to all the different approaches one can take to writing about nature. Poetry, rants, essays. I really loved them all. As a beginning nature/environmental writer, it was so helpful to read a variety of works and decide which methods and arguments were the most compelling. I can honestly say that there was not one subject matter I cared about more than another; no environmental issue was most important. But I tended to favor those writers whose works were both influential, arguing for a cause, as well as crafted lyrically. Gretel Ehrlich, Mary Oliver, Janisse Ray, and the selected contemporary nature poets are writers that I would like to emulate.
And I think I’ve already started to. Every week, we’ve been posting blog entries, both in response to our readings and about our “nature spots,” which we visit every week. I’ve really enjoyed these tasks because they’ve pushed me to write, even when I don’t feel like it. Having a journal routine has allowed me to keep track of the progression of my writing, and it’s so interesting to see how I’ve changed through this semester. My writing has clearly been influenced week to week, depending on what we’ve read. After we read Edward Abbey’s Desert Solitaire, my blog was an argumentative rant mixed with descriptive scene. But once we started reading the poetry, I think went off the deep end. I noticed my place blogs have become more and more abstract over the last few weeks. I recently reread my first place blog entry and then read the one I was working on at that moment. I laughed. “She’s gone crazy?” Sheryl must think. No, I think that this blog has been a huge success. Whatever direction my writing is going, it’s clearly in pursuit of a voice, a personal one, and that’s what we’re trying to do in this course and in this program.
As well as the blogs, another hands-on aspect of this course that I really enjoyed were the field trips. We’re writing about nature, reading about nature, talking about it, but how can you know anything about it unless you’re IN it? So we went to Eden Hall Farm on the coldest morning we’d had that fall, and together as a class we planted a garden. It was such a wonderful experience to be out there in the dirt instead of sitting under the fluorescent lights at our desks. I felt we really bonded then and were able to connect with our subject matter more definitely.
The visits from Jimmy Santiago Baca and Nancy Gift were really special, and I felt privileged to be able to talk with them before their public readings. We certainly got a lot done in our class, now that I’m thinking about it. It was really nice to have so much activity, so many different aspects to the course. Out of all my classes, this was definitely the most engaging and interactive.
Our class is ending, but nature and environmental writing is not a phrase I’m leaving behind with the semester. Marc Nieson told our class in regards to finding our writing voices, “You write about what you love the most and what brings you to your knees.” This is it. I look forward to experimenting with different forms, continuing to dabble in poetry, expanding my essays, and hopefully reaching an audience, bringing them to their knees.
This course was a wonderful introduction to all the different approaches one can take to writing about nature. Poetry, rants, essays. I really loved them all. As a beginning nature/environmental writer, it was so helpful to read a variety of works and decide which methods and arguments were the most compelling. I can honestly say that there was not one subject matter I cared about more than another; no environmental issue was most important. But I tended to favor those writers whose works were both influential, arguing for a cause, as well as crafted lyrically. Gretel Ehrlich, Mary Oliver, Janisse Ray, and the selected contemporary nature poets are writers that I would like to emulate.
And I think I’ve already started to. Every week, we’ve been posting blog entries, both in response to our readings and about our “nature spots,” which we visit every week. I’ve really enjoyed these tasks because they’ve pushed me to write, even when I don’t feel like it. Having a journal routine has allowed me to keep track of the progression of my writing, and it’s so interesting to see how I’ve changed through this semester. My writing has clearly been influenced week to week, depending on what we’ve read. After we read Edward Abbey’s Desert Solitaire, my blog was an argumentative rant mixed with descriptive scene. But once we started reading the poetry, I think went off the deep end. I noticed my place blogs have become more and more abstract over the last few weeks. I recently reread my first place blog entry and then read the one I was working on at that moment. I laughed. “She’s gone crazy?” Sheryl must think. No, I think that this blog has been a huge success. Whatever direction my writing is going, it’s clearly in pursuit of a voice, a personal one, and that’s what we’re trying to do in this course and in this program.
As well as the blogs, another hands-on aspect of this course that I really enjoyed were the field trips. We’re writing about nature, reading about nature, talking about it, but how can you know anything about it unless you’re IN it? So we went to Eden Hall Farm on the coldest morning we’d had that fall, and together as a class we planted a garden. It was such a wonderful experience to be out there in the dirt instead of sitting under the fluorescent lights at our desks. I felt we really bonded then and were able to connect with our subject matter more definitely.
The visits from Jimmy Santiago Baca and Nancy Gift were really special, and I felt privileged to be able to talk with them before their public readings. We certainly got a lot done in our class, now that I’m thinking about it. It was really nice to have so much activity, so many different aspects to the course. Out of all my classes, this was definitely the most engaging and interactive.
Our class is ending, but nature and environmental writing is not a phrase I’m leaving behind with the semester. Marc Nieson told our class in regards to finding our writing voices, “You write about what you love the most and what brings you to your knees.” This is it. I look forward to experimenting with different forms, continuing to dabble in poetry, expanding my essays, and hopefully reaching an audience, bringing them to their knees.
Monday, December 07, 2009
Vista 10
November 30, 3:30pm
Today I climb the hill by the cement steps of my tree-house stairs. I can see my spot, the cold flat grass, the sudden drop where I like to hang my legs. It’s all above me now, coming into my line of sight as I heave my book bag, take another breathy step. Once I reach the top, I’ll look back down, down over the hill of naked branches and dead leaves, and over all of the houses and trees and cars and streets, as far as I can see.
But I’m not excited, not like I am every other week. The stairs today seem shallower. Are there less of them? Pausing on a step, I look out to what in summer was dense forest. Even last week, I thought the vines and branches wild, a little bit of jungle oasis amidst the likes of a city and the manicured campus. But the trees seem sparse. I think of Connecticut, where I’ve just been before these steps, before this walk, one sleep and a long drive ago. Sitting in my backyard, I’m overwhelmed by the towering trees, so dominant that sky is allowed through only a small gap between their heads. I exhale, and my breath reaches out, constantly expanding toward the woods, never returning. In the night, the crickets and frogs croak and buzz, and it seems the sounds echo forever, but no, it’s not an echo.
I pass a lone plastic bottle, half buried in the dirt. I wonder if students on this campus pick up trash when they see it like this, if they make the effort. At home I pull it from the ground, angry at its impurity. “Jon you better go get those beer bottles from our woods,” I tell my brother. “At least have some respect toward the woods, if you don’t have it toward anyone else.” Now I walk past the plastic bottle. This defiance is conscious, though I’m not sure who it’s towards. Not the ground, surely. I feel guilty.
I cannot sit on my usual bed of grass unless I want to get muddy. The pathway that snakes around the garden of bending reeds is drowned in puddles. I stumble around them, wondering why they haven’t frozen over yet. The air is still so warm, I realize. These puddles should be frozen by now.
The pathway is flooded, and so I stomp across the soggy grass toward another set of stairs, the ones that lead toward the school. I’m done here for today. At the top I’m halted. I Take a heavy breath and turn back to face the valley of winding streets, unfamiliar, dead end turns. On the steps, orange tape and a yellow construction excavator block my path.
Today I climb the hill by the cement steps of my tree-house stairs. I can see my spot, the cold flat grass, the sudden drop where I like to hang my legs. It’s all above me now, coming into my line of sight as I heave my book bag, take another breathy step. Once I reach the top, I’ll look back down, down over the hill of naked branches and dead leaves, and over all of the houses and trees and cars and streets, as far as I can see.
But I’m not excited, not like I am every other week. The stairs today seem shallower. Are there less of them? Pausing on a step, I look out to what in summer was dense forest. Even last week, I thought the vines and branches wild, a little bit of jungle oasis amidst the likes of a city and the manicured campus. But the trees seem sparse. I think of Connecticut, where I’ve just been before these steps, before this walk, one sleep and a long drive ago. Sitting in my backyard, I’m overwhelmed by the towering trees, so dominant that sky is allowed through only a small gap between their heads. I exhale, and my breath reaches out, constantly expanding toward the woods, never returning. In the night, the crickets and frogs croak and buzz, and it seems the sounds echo forever, but no, it’s not an echo.
I pass a lone plastic bottle, half buried in the dirt. I wonder if students on this campus pick up trash when they see it like this, if they make the effort. At home I pull it from the ground, angry at its impurity. “Jon you better go get those beer bottles from our woods,” I tell my brother. “At least have some respect toward the woods, if you don’t have it toward anyone else.” Now I walk past the plastic bottle. This defiance is conscious, though I’m not sure who it’s towards. Not the ground, surely. I feel guilty.
I cannot sit on my usual bed of grass unless I want to get muddy. The pathway that snakes around the garden of bending reeds is drowned in puddles. I stumble around them, wondering why they haven’t frozen over yet. The air is still so warm, I realize. These puddles should be frozen by now.
The pathway is flooded, and so I stomp across the soggy grass toward another set of stairs, the ones that lead toward the school. I’m done here for today. At the top I’m halted. I Take a heavy breath and turn back to face the valley of winding streets, unfamiliar, dead end turns. On the steps, orange tape and a yellow construction excavator block my path.
Friday, December 04, 2009
Vista 9
November 19
They circle in the sky, churning the air at the hands of some invisible diviner. He brushes a palm against the breeze and leads them over to the trees. They settle, there, black and ferocious feathers fraying against his breath. They wait, hovering over the streets, the people, uncertain, afraid. Light fades, the opaque paleness of a sun trapped in his cold breath. He exhales, and against the last fleeting light, they break from the trees, and a thousand dark shadows, silhouetted, erupt back into the sky.
The birds. Today they appeared in bellicose flocks, surveying the valley of Shadyside in repeated circuits before retiring to the treetops. There they perched ominously, ruffling their feathers in some pre-war ritual, reporting their findings, planning their next moves. I watched them from the hill, curious. And then just as I thought I might be able to infiltrate, perhaps understand what they’re doing here, they took off, thousands, all at once, without any warning, proving for certain that they are up to no good.
I have never been afraid of birds. I am not afraid of birds. But as I walk down the hill and onto the streets that I’ve just overlooked from my vista, I hunch my shoulders, throw my hood over my forehead. The birds have settled on branches extending over my very street. Crows, I see now. I hear flapping, repeated flapping. I run into the middle of the street. Don’t run in the street, I think. But I feel safer here, all of a sudden. Some of the birds are swooping from the trees, like charger planes, diving low to the ground, and I don’t dare cross their path.
On the hill I was not afraid, I suppose because they were so distant. Like a cyclone their tiny specks of bodies swirled, forming some miniature dark milky way in the sky over Shadyside. I could not hear them either, as they sat distant from me in the trees. I watched, interested, though removed.
Now the trees are moving as I hurry toward my home. In the dark, they are worming, writhing with the birds’ ruffling wings, their twitching heads. I hear a screech, like a dinosaur, not a bird. I pick up my pace. These creatures have infiltrated the whole neighborhood, declared war on my street.
Go on, I think. They’re not here for long. To the next place, go on. They’ve unsettled me, darkened my street with their black bodies. I can almost feel the oil from their feathers, their boniness. How horrifying if one should flutter past my face.
The breeze changes, and in one day, my home feels unsafe, the familiar becomes foreign. I am frightened of what before would never frighten me. Today was cold, and tomorrow will be warm again. I suppose I am still unsettled here, though maybe not. I want the birds to leave. They’ve outstayed their welcome.
They circle in the sky, churning the air at the hands of some invisible diviner. He brushes a palm against the breeze and leads them over to the trees. They settle, there, black and ferocious feathers fraying against his breath. They wait, hovering over the streets, the people, uncertain, afraid. Light fades, the opaque paleness of a sun trapped in his cold breath. He exhales, and against the last fleeting light, they break from the trees, and a thousand dark shadows, silhouetted, erupt back into the sky.
The birds. Today they appeared in bellicose flocks, surveying the valley of Shadyside in repeated circuits before retiring to the treetops. There they perched ominously, ruffling their feathers in some pre-war ritual, reporting their findings, planning their next moves. I watched them from the hill, curious. And then just as I thought I might be able to infiltrate, perhaps understand what they’re doing here, they took off, thousands, all at once, without any warning, proving for certain that they are up to no good.
I have never been afraid of birds. I am not afraid of birds. But as I walk down the hill and onto the streets that I’ve just overlooked from my vista, I hunch my shoulders, throw my hood over my forehead. The birds have settled on branches extending over my very street. Crows, I see now. I hear flapping, repeated flapping. I run into the middle of the street. Don’t run in the street, I think. But I feel safer here, all of a sudden. Some of the birds are swooping from the trees, like charger planes, diving low to the ground, and I don’t dare cross their path.
On the hill I was not afraid, I suppose because they were so distant. Like a cyclone their tiny specks of bodies swirled, forming some miniature dark milky way in the sky over Shadyside. I could not hear them either, as they sat distant from me in the trees. I watched, interested, though removed.
Now the trees are moving as I hurry toward my home. In the dark, they are worming, writhing with the birds’ ruffling wings, their twitching heads. I hear a screech, like a dinosaur, not a bird. I pick up my pace. These creatures have infiltrated the whole neighborhood, declared war on my street.
Go on, I think. They’re not here for long. To the next place, go on. They’ve unsettled me, darkened my street with their black bodies. I can almost feel the oil from their feathers, their boniness. How horrifying if one should flutter past my face.
The breeze changes, and in one day, my home feels unsafe, the familiar becomes foreign. I am frightened of what before would never frighten me. Today was cold, and tomorrow will be warm again. I suppose I am still unsettled here, though maybe not. I want the birds to leave. They’ve outstayed their welcome.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Vista 8
11/16/09 4:00pm
In winter, day and night get closer. They’re pushed together, seeking warmth. Down in the valley, street lights beam white, but the sky still glows pale, electric. It’s not yet night. Black tree branches, silhouetted on the fading canvas, look like skeletons of lovers embracing.
In winter, I hear clearly. Sounds cut through the crisp air. Up the hill, highway traffic rushes, swooshes, shakes the reeds of the wheat stalks. Its dull drone says hello. The stalks shiver. I shiver too.
Far out over the sky, tiny black birds whirl. They circle the city, trying to catch a wind gusting south. Their tiny beaks part and the sound is right there in my ear, the caw caw caw. That’s how crisp this air is.
Footsteps on my tree-house stairs. Her heart beats faster every step she takes. Warm breath meets the icy air. I hear this too, in winter.
There’s more to feel now that it’s here, the frozen months. My neck prickles, tiny icy pins. I pull my jacket tighter. The air backs off and moves to my cheeks. I feel them flush. I rub my face. Like a child, I turn away from the cold. Where next will you make me shiver?
Pointy branches. Frozen grass blades. Icicles, they’ll come. Words that cut through crisp air, direct and unavoidable. Dullness disappears with warmth.
I feel things in winter, a sharpness. Goosebumps under my big white blanket, a shiver not from cold. I trace my finger along the knots of a spine, blow a cold breeze to shake the limbs. Say hello.
And I’ll feel the pedal under my foot as I roll up the window to shut out the cold. Early morning, I’ll find a gust of wind heading east and drive toward the sun. I’ll absorb the highway noise as it echoes behind me, before me, all around me. I’ll find where the day and night grow close, and I’ll meet them halfway.
In winter, day and night get closer. They’re pushed together, seeking warmth. Down in the valley, street lights beam white, but the sky still glows pale, electric. It’s not yet night. Black tree branches, silhouetted on the fading canvas, look like skeletons of lovers embracing.
In winter, I hear clearly. Sounds cut through the crisp air. Up the hill, highway traffic rushes, swooshes, shakes the reeds of the wheat stalks. Its dull drone says hello. The stalks shiver. I shiver too.
Far out over the sky, tiny black birds whirl. They circle the city, trying to catch a wind gusting south. Their tiny beaks part and the sound is right there in my ear, the caw caw caw. That’s how crisp this air is.
Footsteps on my tree-house stairs. Her heart beats faster every step she takes. Warm breath meets the icy air. I hear this too, in winter.
There’s more to feel now that it’s here, the frozen months. My neck prickles, tiny icy pins. I pull my jacket tighter. The air backs off and moves to my cheeks. I feel them flush. I rub my face. Like a child, I turn away from the cold. Where next will you make me shiver?
Pointy branches. Frozen grass blades. Icicles, they’ll come. Words that cut through crisp air, direct and unavoidable. Dullness disappears with warmth.
I feel things in winter, a sharpness. Goosebumps under my big white blanket, a shiver not from cold. I trace my finger along the knots of a spine, blow a cold breeze to shake the limbs. Say hello.
And I’ll feel the pedal under my foot as I roll up the window to shut out the cold. Early morning, I’ll find a gust of wind heading east and drive toward the sun. I’ll absorb the highway noise as it echoes behind me, before me, all around me. I’ll find where the day and night grow close, and I’ll meet them halfway.
Response 10: Jimmy Santiago Baca
I’d just finished reading the excerpts from Jimmy Santiago Baca’s memoir, “A Place to Stand.” From where it left off, I was crushed, though hopeful, knowing he was experiencing revelation in prison. He was writing, dreaming, finding hope through poetry. The memoir offered snippets of his early poetry, rudimentary rhymes and dabbling in a foreign language. But his tragic childhood still haunted me. I picked up “Martín & Meditations on the South Valley,” flipped to the first page. I read the first stanza and felt triumph.
I was so moved by Baca’s poetry, as well as by his memoir, and I’m grateful that I could read excerpts of both forms at the same time, for I feel both works are informative, if not crucial to one another’s experience. Experience is what makes Baca’s writing powerful, what sets him apart from others. He had a tragic upbringing; he was abandoned by his parents, abused, mistreated. He was homeless, alienated from his past. Many go to prison, but it was there for Baca, that he actually found what he had lost, rediscovered that his “home” was much more rooted than in a house, deeper than a “family.” In his memoir, he writes, “One day, looking up from my journal to stare absentmindedly at the cell wall, I experienced a revelation. On the wall – in the sand and mortar and stones and iron and trowel sweeps – were the life experiences and sweat of my people. It contained a mural of my people’s toil, their aspirations, their pain and workmanship. I imagined my grandfather’s hand smoothing out the concrete…The iron that made the bas came from a mill in Silver City; the workers who had built the mill came from little villages on the plains. The dirt that mixed with the cement, before it was scooped up and trucked and delivered to make this wall, had been prairie soil where families camped and a woman had lain and gave birth to a child. People had slept on this dirt, tilled it for their crops and gardens, built their adobe homes with it” (239.)
Baca rekindles a tie with his people that he had lost in his upbringing. He reconnects with the land he can call his home, though he never did before. As I read through “Black Mesa Poems” and “Martín & Meditations on the South Valley,” the characters from this land came through vividly, as if he had never been separated, as if he had never felt lost. In “Too Much of a Good Thing,” Baca voices farmers and their crops. He often refers to the cycling of the seasons, the snow, the fall. In segment XII of “Martín & Meditations on the South Valley,” the narrator becomes one with the land.
I dream
myself maiz root:
swollen in pregnant earth,
rain seeping into my black bones
sifting red soil grains of my heart
into earth’s hungry mouth.
I am part of the earth.
When reading “A Place to Stand,” I was enchanted by the childlike voice which he embodies to describe these extremely vivid experiences. Of course, he is a child in many of the segments and the language is appropriate. Yet, while the language is simple, the descriptions still grasp the range of human emotions associated with the experiences. In the prologue, when Baca describes visiting his father at jail for the first time, he writes, “I wanted to tell him I was sorry. I didn’t want to keep him in jail. Only when he was drinking did he threaten to beat Mom up, wreck the car, lose his paycheck gambling, or sometimes not show up for days. He was not drinking now. We should have let him come home with us” (2.) The sentences are direct, the emotions straightforward. But they are sharp, and they bore through us because we know they are coming from a child, but resonating years later in the heart of a man.
The language of Baca’s poetry is quite opposite to that in his memoir, and it makes me think of prison and freedom. Every sentence is chocked full of descriptive words, sparing literally no space for a boring verb or noun. He hardly ever uses the verb “to be” in present or past tense. I feel the care with which Baca chose his words, as if he’s appreciating the beauty of that which he’s describing in a way a person who has always been free can’t even see. He picks the words like they’re fruit from a tree; why use any but the ripest, the sweetest, the tastiest?
I had an image of mother in the morning
dancing in front of the mirror
in pink panties,
masking her face with mascara,
squeezing into tight jeans,
Her laughter rough as brocaded cloth
and her teeth brilliant as church tiles.
I thoroughly enjoyed reading Jimmy Santiago Baca’s work, and I can’t wait to meet him on Thursday. I wonder if despite his troubled childhood, there was any instant when he found himself considering language in his youth. With such talent, I wouldn’t be surprised if even as a child, he spoke to himself when no one knew. Perhaps he didn’t even know he was doing it. Does one become a poet like a phoenix rising out of the flames? Or is language a part of us? Like the land was a part of him, only needing to be discovered, relearned, really felt?
I was so moved by Baca’s poetry, as well as by his memoir, and I’m grateful that I could read excerpts of both forms at the same time, for I feel both works are informative, if not crucial to one another’s experience. Experience is what makes Baca’s writing powerful, what sets him apart from others. He had a tragic upbringing; he was abandoned by his parents, abused, mistreated. He was homeless, alienated from his past. Many go to prison, but it was there for Baca, that he actually found what he had lost, rediscovered that his “home” was much more rooted than in a house, deeper than a “family.” In his memoir, he writes, “One day, looking up from my journal to stare absentmindedly at the cell wall, I experienced a revelation. On the wall – in the sand and mortar and stones and iron and trowel sweeps – were the life experiences and sweat of my people. It contained a mural of my people’s toil, their aspirations, their pain and workmanship. I imagined my grandfather’s hand smoothing out the concrete…The iron that made the bas came from a mill in Silver City; the workers who had built the mill came from little villages on the plains. The dirt that mixed with the cement, before it was scooped up and trucked and delivered to make this wall, had been prairie soil where families camped and a woman had lain and gave birth to a child. People had slept on this dirt, tilled it for their crops and gardens, built their adobe homes with it” (239.)
Baca rekindles a tie with his people that he had lost in his upbringing. He reconnects with the land he can call his home, though he never did before. As I read through “Black Mesa Poems” and “Martín & Meditations on the South Valley,” the characters from this land came through vividly, as if he had never been separated, as if he had never felt lost. In “Too Much of a Good Thing,” Baca voices farmers and their crops. He often refers to the cycling of the seasons, the snow, the fall. In segment XII of “Martín & Meditations on the South Valley,” the narrator becomes one with the land.
I dream
myself maiz root:
swollen in pregnant earth,
rain seeping into my black bones
sifting red soil grains of my heart
into earth’s hungry mouth.
I am part of the earth.
When reading “A Place to Stand,” I was enchanted by the childlike voice which he embodies to describe these extremely vivid experiences. Of course, he is a child in many of the segments and the language is appropriate. Yet, while the language is simple, the descriptions still grasp the range of human emotions associated with the experiences. In the prologue, when Baca describes visiting his father at jail for the first time, he writes, “I wanted to tell him I was sorry. I didn’t want to keep him in jail. Only when he was drinking did he threaten to beat Mom up, wreck the car, lose his paycheck gambling, or sometimes not show up for days. He was not drinking now. We should have let him come home with us” (2.) The sentences are direct, the emotions straightforward. But they are sharp, and they bore through us because we know they are coming from a child, but resonating years later in the heart of a man.
The language of Baca’s poetry is quite opposite to that in his memoir, and it makes me think of prison and freedom. Every sentence is chocked full of descriptive words, sparing literally no space for a boring verb or noun. He hardly ever uses the verb “to be” in present or past tense. I feel the care with which Baca chose his words, as if he’s appreciating the beauty of that which he’s describing in a way a person who has always been free can’t even see. He picks the words like they’re fruit from a tree; why use any but the ripest, the sweetest, the tastiest?
I had an image of mother in the morning
dancing in front of the mirror
in pink panties,
masking her face with mascara,
squeezing into tight jeans,
Her laughter rough as brocaded cloth
and her teeth brilliant as church tiles.
I thoroughly enjoyed reading Jimmy Santiago Baca’s work, and I can’t wait to meet him on Thursday. I wonder if despite his troubled childhood, there was any instant when he found himself considering language in his youth. With such talent, I wouldn’t be surprised if even as a child, he spoke to himself when no one knew. Perhaps he didn’t even know he was doing it. Does one become a poet like a phoenix rising out of the flames? Or is language a part of us? Like the land was a part of him, only needing to be discovered, relearned, really felt?
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
The Tap Water's Fine!: Pollution and Alienation
The problems Pittsburgh is having with overflowing sewers during nearly every rainstorm is a serious issues to me, as it seems to be about more than just the water, the sewers, and the rivers. Of course, I was interested in how this could happen. How every bit of rainfall could cause a back-up of raw sewage, which eventually overflows into local creeks, streams, and the main rivers of the city.
One source blamed record rainfall and the heavy stress it’s put on the sewage treatment systems. Another article sited technological decisions made at various points throughout the city’s history, such as to deal with wastewater in fast-growing suburbs through septic tanks or separate sewer systems that only provided for domestic waters and not storm waters.
What can’t be debated is that the sewage, along with chemicals and other pollutants that run into the waterways after heavy rains, pose major crises for Pittsburgh residents, as well as the wildlife that inhabit the area.
The first article I read assures the reader, “Treatment of drinking water is not harmed…” Yes, your tap water will still be filtered properly, despite the sewage in the rivers, streams, and lakes. But the article didn’t mention the fish – trout, bass – we take from the river to eat. What about the deer who drink from the river? Or the crops that soak up groundwater, polluted by these chemicals and sewage. Is their water filtered for them too?
The Pittsburgh water issue is part of a much larger crisis, one that’s plaguing all of this country on many fronts. We put things on our mouth, we chew, we swallow, without knowing what they are. Are they even foods? We certainly don’t know where they come from, or what their ingredients are. Just like this reporter didn’t think to address the greater issue at hand – that the water isn’t just drank directly from our taps – it’s absorbed by our plants, lapped by the animals we eat – we are alienated that which nourishes us. Food. Water.
I think of Janisse Ray and her writing about the Longleaf Pine Forest. The ecosystem was so intricate, and we came to know it through her stories of the salamander, the gopher tortoise, and the indigo snake. We learned how they lived symbiotically, and how the extinction of one species was like a deadly domino effect for the rest. We came to care for that ecosystem in the way that she hoped, through her passionate writing, but most of all through just through the awareness she brought to us. I didn’t even know these forests existed before I read her book.
I think the bones of this environmental issue that I’ve written about above is not just the sewage or the rain, but the alienation. We have this problem in the first place because of the overlapping of ideas, the development of a city over a long period of time, and the lack of consideration for key elements that would’ve sustained the system’s success even as rainfalls and populations increased. We develop and urbanize and search for solutions. But we have to try to see that the solution is to take a step back and remember how the world works naturally, because that’s the way that’s it’s going to work best. To write about this would be to create an awareness somehow, in the way that Ray did perhaps, gently. She was effective in relating the stories to her personal life, and I think that would be a good way to both avoid too much tension and also to draw out mirroring themes.
I don’t pretend to have solutions for the wastewater, but I know that we can’t create elaborate systems that transport toxic materials long distances if they’re faulty.
We have to be conscious that everything we throw away, pour outside, put on the ground (or on our lawns) will come back to us. The earth cycles, it lives. We wonder why people get sick with cancer, why they’re infertile. Think about the chemicals you’re pouring out – it will end up in the water and back in your food. And think about your food – it’s what gives you life. Think about it. Think.
One source blamed record rainfall and the heavy stress it’s put on the sewage treatment systems. Another article sited technological decisions made at various points throughout the city’s history, such as to deal with wastewater in fast-growing suburbs through septic tanks or separate sewer systems that only provided for domestic waters and not storm waters.
What can’t be debated is that the sewage, along with chemicals and other pollutants that run into the waterways after heavy rains, pose major crises for Pittsburgh residents, as well as the wildlife that inhabit the area.
The first article I read assures the reader, “Treatment of drinking water is not harmed…” Yes, your tap water will still be filtered properly, despite the sewage in the rivers, streams, and lakes. But the article didn’t mention the fish – trout, bass – we take from the river to eat. What about the deer who drink from the river? Or the crops that soak up groundwater, polluted by these chemicals and sewage. Is their water filtered for them too?
The Pittsburgh water issue is part of a much larger crisis, one that’s plaguing all of this country on many fronts. We put things on our mouth, we chew, we swallow, without knowing what they are. Are they even foods? We certainly don’t know where they come from, or what their ingredients are. Just like this reporter didn’t think to address the greater issue at hand – that the water isn’t just drank directly from our taps – it’s absorbed by our plants, lapped by the animals we eat – we are alienated that which nourishes us. Food. Water.
I think of Janisse Ray and her writing about the Longleaf Pine Forest. The ecosystem was so intricate, and we came to know it through her stories of the salamander, the gopher tortoise, and the indigo snake. We learned how they lived symbiotically, and how the extinction of one species was like a deadly domino effect for the rest. We came to care for that ecosystem in the way that she hoped, through her passionate writing, but most of all through just through the awareness she brought to us. I didn’t even know these forests existed before I read her book.
I think the bones of this environmental issue that I’ve written about above is not just the sewage or the rain, but the alienation. We have this problem in the first place because of the overlapping of ideas, the development of a city over a long period of time, and the lack of consideration for key elements that would’ve sustained the system’s success even as rainfalls and populations increased. We develop and urbanize and search for solutions. But we have to try to see that the solution is to take a step back and remember how the world works naturally, because that’s the way that’s it’s going to work best. To write about this would be to create an awareness somehow, in the way that Ray did perhaps, gently. She was effective in relating the stories to her personal life, and I think that would be a good way to both avoid too much tension and also to draw out mirroring themes.
I don’t pretend to have solutions for the wastewater, but I know that we can’t create elaborate systems that transport toxic materials long distances if they’re faulty.
We have to be conscious that everything we throw away, pour outside, put on the ground (or on our lawns) will come back to us. The earth cycles, it lives. We wonder why people get sick with cancer, why they’re infertile. Think about the chemicals you’re pouring out – it will end up in the water and back in your food. And think about your food – it’s what gives you life. Think about it. Think.
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